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Wednesday, 22 June 2016

We Don't Repair, We Replace.

No matter how hard you try, sometimes you drift apart from your closest people, sometimes even the longest of friendships end. Time loses its essence. Emotions take a back seat. Ego rules your head and heart. Your priorities are different. This way, what could have still been saved, may be with an effort or two, falls apart.

We are a generation that replaces, that doesn't repair, that doesn't try, because we are busy in the race of life. We are too cool, too rigid, with "I don't give a fuck" attitude, and we are too confident that, we can find other people who will be so much better than these stupid people who once were an inseparable part of our life. We break up on text messages, we end friendships by a whatsapp message followed by un-friending, unfollowing on every social media portal. I mean, seriously? Texts, the most fucked up form of communication that only and solely causes confusion and communication gaps!

I am not saying, keep chasing, keep running behind that person, but at least give it one shot? Drop them a text, place a call, and talk, try to figure it out. I know it's easy to find yourself new cool chaps to hang out with, go grab a drink with, and dance the weekend away, but don't you think for all the times you people were there for each other when no one else was, do you think you'll be able to find someone; who you'll run to when your heart is breaking, who you'll run to when you need to approach that guy you've been crushing since forever, someone who you want to share every tiny detail of your day, who you run to when you need those arms to heal you, who you'll call when you have no words to explain what's happening in your head and heart. I think, "your person" should be given one chance, what you shared should be given one chance. The numerous emotions, memories, etc deserve one chance?

Things wither away, but this, what you have, what you share, is not just a THING. I am not at all talking about all the romantic relationships, I am talking about those friendships that worn out, that just change due to no reasons, when people from talking to all day, go to few times in a day, to few times in a week and so on, and then they reach this awkward phase where even if they wish to talk, they dont. They just let go. Letting go may have become easier, because there are so many ways you can keep yourself distracted and occupied, that we dont even give it one chance?

Misunderstandings, Miscommunications, Assumptions and in all this drama, forgetting to listen to the other person. Sigh. What happened to the times, when you gave each other numerous chances and came out stronger? Trusted each other even more? Made promises to never leave even when you feel like hating each other, because you loved each other more than all the hate?

It amazes me, It will always amaze me, how easily we humans, drift apart, sometimes without a word, sometimes with just "one word texts", sometimes by being blocked. How easily we replace, how easily we just let it go,how easily we give up on each other. How we just dont bother about anyone else but our own self?





Love.
D.
xx

Tuesday, 7 June 2016

The Name's Negi, Sangya Negi.

I run out of words to describe what this girl is to me.
Ray of sunshine on a dark night, source of happiness when everything is gloomy, peace when there’s CHAOS; always successful in reading my mind and heart :D. The name’s Negi, SANGYA NEGI!
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July 2011, distressed, sad, lost. I was dreading the college admissions. I see this girl in Red (Oh Red was her favourite colour back then, it’s GIRLY PINK now), She’s trying to figure out something, came to my father asking questions and we start talking, exchange numbers. That day, I hadn’t thought she would become what she has become now to me. Last minute admission and this gift wrapped in Red with a scarf around (Little soul is always having cold :P) , she brought back what was lost since long, she brought back me to life, and so, she’s LIFE.
Sometimes you meet someone and in that one meeting , be it just a few minutes or hours, you feel so close and you open so fast that even you don’t realise how it happened. With you, I could share anything and everything. Conversations, those few conversations made me realise, “arey ye mere jaisi hai” ! :D

This girl is my confidant, my lifeline, my saviour, my partner in crime, back bone, counsellor, one person who would never ever judge me, one person who would be okay even if I tell her I murdered someone :D
Need advice, go to her. Need food at 12, Sangya will cooook. Need anything, just say Sangya and the thing is there. You fairy! :*

You’ve showered me enough love to last forever, you’ve seen me at my worst(LITERALLY MY WORST) and you’ve still loved me unconditionally, you’ve made me have faith, you’ve made me survive HNLU (TOUGHEST THING EVER), you’ve made me feel special, you’ve saved me from so many things, you’ve taken care of me like no one else, you’ve tolerated my hunger anger, you’ve made me believe that some people don’t leave you ever, you’ve given me another family that loves me dearly, and you’ve given me reasons to LIVE, when I had all the reasons to not (atleast I thought so at that time :D )

Sangya, in these five years of college life, the one thing that I am thankful to college for is YOU. Had you not been here, I wouldn’t have survived college and life. I can go on and on, because you woman deserve it all.
With chaos in your life, you handle things so beautifully, that I end up loving you more and then how can I miss mentioning your rib-crushing hugs!
Thank you , Thank you for being YOU. Thank you for being there. Thank you for saving me. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for making me a better person everyday. Thank you for letting me be who I am, yet letting me become a better human being every single day. :*

I love you way to much to write it down in words.

Tum na hoti toh zindagi adhuri hoti. :)

So, as you turn older, I wish that your heart’s deepest desires are fulfilled, may your skin become flawless, and teeth remain intact, may your hair be frizz-free, and may the food you eat never makes you gain weight! :P
And I hope every time you make a wish, somewhere there’s a shooting star that makes sure that it comes true!

Happpy Birthdayyy Womaniya! :*
Go eat the entire cake, and start thinking of what the cake for Birthday '17 would be! :P
My Jigar ka Tukda :*


 
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Lovee
xx



Thursday, 14 January 2016

COURAGE, Dear Heart.

Give a thought to dying. You are walking on the road and a bus hits you and you're gone. Just imagine the things that die with you; a kind word, a hidden feeling, a thought to share and so much more. There are things you wish to say, but you don't. But time flies, today you're here, tomorrow you won't be. Missing a chance to say what's in your heart and dying with it would suck. It would be worse than being turned down, worse than not being loved back, or let's say worse than not getting the desired reaction to your thoughts and feelings.

Living with the regret of saying something is better than dying with the regret of not saying it. Expression they say is not that easy for everyone. It isn't for me either, but that shouldn't stop you from indulging in that. Write it on a letter, email it, text it, voice record it, if you cannot say it in person. But say what you wish to. Say what your heart feels. Let your head follow your heart, because like Paulo Coelho said, the heart knows everything. No matter what the consequences are, let the love inside you reach who it is for. When you can be so clear and loud about how you dislike something in someone or how you react when someone irritates you, why not be vocal about the appreciation or admiration or love that you have for someone. :)

Why not say it loud and clear that, you love someone's smile, or voice, or gestures, or how you look up to them, or how madly and irrevocably you are falling for them, or how you like to spend time with them, or how deeply they have affected your life, or how much they matter?

Tough? Indeed. It's tougher than most of the things you've done; nothing makes you weaker than these thoughts that are only in your head, because they need to reach a destination. I can assure you whatever happens post that, would be better than 'what ifs'! It's not about just getting them out of your system.
Dont you think, if you had the courage to fall in love, courage to feel all the emotions so deeply, or the courage to let someone have an impact on your life, courage to let someone break those walls and enter your heart; You should have the courage to speak all of it, and let them know how you feel! And why not, who wouldn't like few kind words being spoken about them? :) 

I cannot guarantee that it'll make you feel better, it might just not be in your favour, may be you goof up, may be it is not like the way you wanted it to be, may be it is exactly how you didnt want it to be, may be you are at the losing end, but like I said before, Live with the regret of saying it, rather that living with the regret of not even knowing what it could be? And what if, it turns out to be like you wanted it to be, or even in a more beautiful way or what if you find your fairytale? 

You gotta make a wish, work towards it, fight for it, and life shall definitely surprise you in the most beautiful way possible! Say it, dont keep your words in your heart, no matter what degree of introvert you are, or you are a scared introvert your words gotta reach the person they are for! 

HAVE THE COURAGE, Dear Heart!
Say it, Say it out Loud. What happens next is not something you or anyone can control! :)

Love
xx