“I love it when someone holds me and sleeps.”

“I love it when someone holds me and sleeps.”

One sentence by a friend, led me to write this post!

They say, there’s nothing a hug cant fix, that’s the power of a touch!

Believe me or not, one day or the other you’ll realize this!

Who doesn’t dreams of being held in someone’s arms, where you feel safe, secure, loved, protected and warm!

The warmth which makes you feel at peace! The warmth which brings you immense happiness, unadulterated happiness!

Sleeping alone is not that BIG an issue! People start living away from home after they are 18, at times even when they are younger! But at some point of time, you really wish you could have someone by your side who would hold you close, just like your mom and dad did when you were a kid, the touch which is full of affection, innocence, and pure love!

That’s the one I am talking about!  

Even knowing that there’s someone lying beside you gives you a feeling of being loved, cared for,

And when you wake up in the middle of the night, and shift under the quilt , you feel the heat of the person next to you. You see them in their most beautiful, innocent, vulnerable state.

You smile, Kiss them in the most gentle manner, so as not to wake them, and there’s a wide grin on your face, Happiness in your heart, feeling of love, feeling of being wanted !

You turn around, and you find an arm around your waist and you know it cannot get better than this! :)

And this certainly is the best feeling when you are not afraid, that you’ll lose the person whose next to you!

What hugs and cuddles can do, nothing else can match up to that feeling!

Not expensive gifts, Not a candle light dinner in the most expensive restaurant!

SOMETHINGS IN LIFE ARE TO BE EXPERIENCED NOT TO BE EXPLAINED,

This is one such thing.!

These thoughts hit the mind rarely, but when they do,

 I remember how full of solitude life has  been, and I fail to remember the last time I hugged someone, really hugged someone. :)

Love,

Divv!

xoxo

Growing Up wouldn't have been the Same without You Jas! :)

It took me great time to think of a title for this one,
Probably because like I was unsure of how to start or infact what to write in this one, I was unsure of what to title it as.
This post was to come long back , write then when the person this post is about was there around all the time, but better late than never, they say.

I'l start with, I dont think I ever was the best friend she was to me , because I did blunders unknowingly or not I don't know, but I did,
Knowing her since childhood, but never was close, I still dont know what got us close but then 7th grade did wonders to our friendship!
Ups and Downs, Laughter and Tears, Fights and make-ups, SO MUCH,
so much I went through all with her, standing strong, and I dont know how, but LIFE would have been DIFFERENT had she not been there, I would HAVE BEEN DIFFERENT, had she not been there.
She was my FIRST best friend, the one you make when you start growing up! The one who knows how stupid , kiddish I was , the one who just loved the kid in me, the one was genuine, the one who was fragile, the first one to be that close to me , the first one to wipe my tears, the first one to ever make me feel loved and cared for! :)

Let's just describe her : You've been my strength all along, when I was too young to be INDEPENDENT!

She was, She is :
Amazingly caring, very sweet, She just managed to read my mind, my heart, it was Strange but yes, I never had to tell her I am upset, or something, she would just know it,
Grade 7th, 8th ,9 th and 10th!
FOUR years, she was a shoulder to cry on, someone to listen when my endless talks wont end,
we played, we roamed, we laughed, we chatted (Another story this is), never did it happen that I didnt smile when she tried to make me,
turned my tears into smiles, understood me well, Let me say, "BETTER than I did",
Never did hurt me, but I did, and I am Sorry for every bit of it.

Then we parted, but we were together again, sadly , NOT THAT CLOSE, still, she was the same, that caring, that loving, the difference was, "We just could'nt get that close", and that will always always be lamented by me!

This post, because somehow at times I miss her so much, that it hits the innermost part of my heart, and unable to do anything, I just sit wonder, and hope , (STUPID HOPE THIS IS), that we'l get back to the same old thing again, lets hope lets wish! :)

I never did, I never got a chance,
but I need to thank you for being there through all the shit that happened, and making me feel loved and cared for.
You are a part of so many memories, the ones which I can never forget, the ones which still make me smile, the ones which I miss,
I have missed you, I still miss you, and I will always miss you. <3

Love , so much love,
xDivyax

One Year Completed at HNLU! SERIOUSLY?

Hello,
Its been ages since I could write something.
sheer laziness is the reason.


One year old I am at college, but it doesnt feel real, its actually hard to digest.
I still dont know how two semesters went by!!
College has been pretty awesome for me,
unlike others who crib about they are in a jungle, and etc, I just feel sad , because people need to appreciate things.
I absolutely LOVE my college, and I wont think one moment to shoot another person(not literally) who speaks shit about it. And why shouldn't I?
Just because its situated where not MANY BIG malls exist, or its 25 kms away from the city?
I have more reasons to LOVE it, 
For the wonderful people I met there, and because no matter what people say, DUDE , its a NATIONAL LAW UNIVERSITY.! I am proud to be its part. !
It has a LIBRARY which is AWESOME. and so many OTHER things!
And the  pretty awesome seniors I have, ones who passed out, and the ones still there,
they leave me spellbound with the talents , knowledge they have! and some are real cute too! ;)
And come what may, I am gonna love and respect it! :)


This one year was eventful, with ups and downs of its own.
Happy, Very Happy Moments and Sad moments too.
Sad moment, when the fifth year left, 
Yes, it might sound weird that we knew them for just one year, or not even that,
But when good people leave , it is bound to make you sad, because GOOD and HAPPY people never fail to bring a smile, and that my friend is very important away from home!


End of first year, bought with itself, 
A new set of friends, Changed perception about things and people, A few realisations about life, and some good good memories. :)
It did pass real soon, though during exams was the only time when I realised that , "PASS honge ya nahi"! 
but then, that phase has passed too!


Its good to be back to writing!
I hope I keep writing,
not about just college, but about the vacations , and about life generally! :)


x Divya x

IN THE CITY OF THE BONGS!!

I still LOVE window seats!!

:) 

Ruchita and Sangya with some chana thingy which was NICE! :)

With Ruchita !:)

Sangyaaa..with her happydent smile! :)

RIGHT AT THE HOWRAH STATION.
that's Sangya and Ruchita posing with the luggage! ;)

LEFT TO RIGHT : Tanay, Ananda, Gargi,Sangya, Ruchita. at HOWRAH STATION!

So, I am IN CALCUTTAAAA!!
yes! First time I am here in this city and what's best about it..I am first time all alone with friends..WHY?
I am here with my college people to attend a fest in NUJS KOLKATA!! Sports and cultural fest..
The sports one is called INVICTA and the cultural one is OUTLAWED!!


And since this is the first trip when I am with friends I am amazingly excited! Since I never went to any school trip because we never had any!:P


The train journey was pretty nice.
We just ended with our peculiar kind of exams on 3rd and we were to leave on 4th in the morning at 4.30 , the train was at 6!!
We didnt sleep that night and somehow we reached on time..!
We ate all the train-food , some chana, had chai , and slept and the view from the window was prettyy..
And pictures of course..will post soon!
Reached around 7-7.30 at the HOWRAH STATION!!!!


And then around 9.30 to the place where I am putting up!! :)
Ate..walked..watched television..talked..laughed...
Well it feels sooooooo GOOOOOD!!! :D
I'll post soon about DAY ONE!! Hungry right now..so off to eat!!!


x Love x

TWO DECADES OLD.. TURNING TWENTYYYYY!

Hours after turning 20..and stepping out of teenage! J

YES! It feels like I just woke up from a dream and here I am writing!

EXCITED – No!

WORRIED of AGEING- BLAH! NO!!

HAPPY- umm.. I guess!

SAD- Nah!

Kinda missing a few things, moments and people.

BIRTHDAYS are meant to be SPECIAL!

But maximum times they have just been like any other normal average day! And this is the first one away from home! Away from the usual set of people!

Stepping out of teenage with so many memories to cherish, lessons for a lifetime and so many other things!

TURNING 20 with a totally new set of people around physically but still a few old ones emotionally still there INTACT! J

A more polished, a more groomed ME!

YES! Change is inevitable and what’s good is when “change is for the better”! :D

A more focused, confident, mature, serious, chilled out, ever-smiling ME! J

20 YEARS is a long time, Indeed it is.

UPS and DOWNS IN ALL SPHERES OF LIFE AND WHAT’S BEST ABOUT IT..? Coming out of it..SHINING!! And people who’d been there for me or with me! Ah! They are the most amazing people ever! Believe me..Handling someone as impatient, pettish, insane like me is a tough job and so whatever I am today in all because of them.

What made me go through all the rough parths of life was their care, love and their support and these were the ones who were their to share those “ON TOP OF THE WORLD MOMENTS” !

And what will keep me going is their trust, faith and Undying LOVE!

From year one to year NINETEEN, people came, people went, a few f them have been there through thich and thin and there’s this BIG THANK YOU to them!

Some new chapters, some new characters and of course their entry.. and things weren’t  the same!

And the last teenag year in true sense..was” THE MOST EVENTFUL YEAR OF MY LIFE..”

Start of some new chapters, closure of a few old ones!

Some faces unmasked and a feeling never felt before felt!

Memories that’ll last a lifetime! Memories that’ll surely make me smile like a retard even in a crowd! SPECIAL! Yes..VERY!!

And then a new phase of life..COLLEGE! Finallyyy!!

A few new friends! Varying personalities: Plastic people, masked people and among them a few genuined gems, those who’ll make the next FIVE YEARS of my life “MEMORABLE”!!

2011: The year WHERE LIFE TOOK A DIFFERENT TURN! Amore independent, slightly difficult life!

A Different me..! The person behind! Let’s skip mentioning the names!

So, HAPPILY 20, HAPPILY LOVING, HAPPILY MISSING A FEW PEOPLE!

HAPPY TWENTIETH BIRTHDAY TO ME!! J

2012.. I really wish I get a glimpse of 2011 this year too! I REALLY DO! J

Love..

x Divya x

<3<3

CONFESSIONS: PART ONE.

I felt like writing, so here are 50 Confessions.

CONFESSIONS: PART ONE..
The next part should be up soon.!

1.I am a hopelessly caring one.
2.I totally love it when someone sings to me, no matter the voice is good or not.
3.There's this one person who I cannot imagine my existence without, that's Animeha Singh. You make her cry, I kill you.
4.I'd love to be in love.
5.I love listening to Sidharth read out whatever short little things he writes, or saves in the drafts.
6.I love cold coffee.. making it, drinking it. Everything. ITS ADDICTIVE.
7.I Love cooking when someone asks me to cook for them.
8.I can kill the person who intentionally or unintentionally raises his/her voice on my mother. I love her. and so you want to bring out the monster in me, Try this.
9.I am so freaking proud to have a brother like the one I have and seeing him happy is what I pray for..
10.Though my dad is one of those short-tempered ones, but I love him to the core.
11.I love shoes. Yes as Ankit (one of my classmates here at college) says, "Shoes are my drugs.!"
12.Dancing makes me happy.
13.I love hugs, those long tight ones.
14.I love holding hands.
15.I am affectionate, I just fail to express that.
16.I love long walks, those under the starry sky.
17.I love road trips, and scenic views, they give me peace.
18.I love being the reason for someone's happiness.
19.I love being stupid, only in front of people I love and trust. So If I act stupid in front of you, that means I trust you.
20.I love Sangya's singing. She's amazing!
21.I don't forget what people tell me, be it my flaws, or praise, or anything that has hurt me.
22.I forgive easily.
23.My anger is short lived, comes soon , leaves sooner.
24.I love treating Pravesha as my little kid, It gives me happiness to see her smiling and happy.I love her.
25.I love the feel of cold winds on my face.
26.I love rains.
27.I love "being there" for people close to me.They smile and I forget my worries.
28.I am always laughing, chirpy, bubbly, smiling..when I am not, ah..something's troubling me!
29.It takes a lot to make me speak about the inner feelings, may be of happiness or of hurt.
30.I believe in loving unconditionally, purely, irrevocably and selflessly.
31.I am extra-sensitive to touch.
32.I can help people to the extent where I forget my own needs.
33.I love Perfumes and people who smell good, its a turn-on!
34.I trust easily.
35.I think that there are some wounds which never heal, which only the person who has given you those can heal. and I have one such wound in my heart.
36.I have a desire to touch someone's heart deeply , just once. To have an impact on someone's life.
37.I love it when someone shares their sadness or grief with me rather than the happiness.
38.I LOVE going on walks with ILU and SARTHAK.
39.If I say, I love you or I miss you, I mean it , like 100%!
40.I am PRETTY AWESOME with remembering birthdays,anniversaries and dates, and I like being the first person to wish right at 12!
41.Since I was never pampered much as a kid, I love it when my friends pamper me.
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43.I believe that when someone is special to you, you should make them feel special always, not on just one single day of the year or month.
44.Its okay, when people take me for granted, I still love them with all my heart, If I once had, I always will.I believe what all good you do, never goes to waste.
45.It takes a lot of time for me to speak it up when I am upset about something.Most of the times it goes unnoticed behind the 24*7 smile.
46.I miss a few things and moments terribly.
47.I love long drives.
48.I am someone who can go to great extents for people I love.
49.I am easily hurt, though I don't prefer showing that .
50.Whenever I miss people , I re-read old texts, conversations and go through their pictures.






WEB-CAM CRAZINESS: WITH Sangya and Gargi!







I am so much in love with Anklets! So that's why this! :)

A list of FIFTYY things of HAVEs' and DOs'!!

Live your DREAM!

Give time to your kids! they cherish that!

Take a chance coz you never know how perfect that'll turn out to be!

1. Have a firm handshake.
2. Look people in the eye.
3. Sing in the shower.
4. Own a great stereo system.
5. If in a fight, hit first and hit hard.
6. Keep secrets.
7. Never give up on anybody. Miracles happen everyday.
8. Always accept an outstretched hand.
9. Be brave. Even if you're not, pretend to be. No one can tell the difference.
10. Whistle.
11. Avoid sarcastic remarks.
12. Choose your life's mate carefully. From this one decision will come 90 per cent of all your happiness or misery.
13. Make it a habit to do nice things for people who will never find out.
14. Lend only those books you never care to see again.
15. Never deprive someone of hope; it might be all that they have.
16. When playing games with  children, let them win.
17. Give people a second chance, but not a third.
18. Be romantic.
19. Become the most positive and enthusiastic person you know.
20. Loosen up. Relax. Except for rare life-and-death matters, nothing is as important as it first seems.
21. Don't allow the phone to interrupt important moments. It's there for our convenience, not the caller's.
22. Be a good loser.
23. Be a good winner.
24. Think twice before burdening a friend with a secret.
25. When someone hugs you, let them be the first to let go.
26. Be modest. A lot was accomplished before you were born.
27. Keep it simple.
28. Beware of the person who has nothing to lose.
29. Don't burn bridges. You'll be surprised how many times you have to cross the same river.
30. Live your life so that your epitaph could read, No Regrets
31. Be bold and courageous. When you look back on life, you'll regret the things you didn't do more than the one's you did.
32. Never waste an opportunity to tell someone you love them.
33. Remember no one makes it alone. Have a grateful heart and be quick to acknowledge those who helped you.
34. Take charge of your attitude. Don't let someone else choose it for you.
35. Visit friends and relatives when they are in hospital; you need to only stay for a few minutes.
36. Begin each day with some of your favorite music.
37. Once in a while, take the scenic route.
38. Send a lot of Valentine cards. Sign them, 'Someone who thinks you're terrific.'
39. Answer the phone with enthusiasm and energy in your voice.
40. Keep a note pad and pencil on your bed-side table. Million-dollar ideas sometimes strike at 3 a.m.
41. Show respect for everyone who works for a living, regardless of how trivial their job.
42. Send your loved ones flowers. Think of a reason later.
43. Make someone's day by paying the toll for the person in the car behind you.
44. Become someone's hero.
45. Marry only for love.
46. Count your blessings.
47. Compliment the meal when you're a guest in someone's home.
48. Wave at the children on a school bus.
49. Remember that 80 per cent of the success in any job is based on your ability to deal with people.
50. Don't expect life to be fair