I have always believed in having no regrets. Simply because it's pointless. You did something you wanted to, and its done, you did it because you wanted to, you took a decision, DEAL with it.
I remember reading somewhere, follow your heart, do what it says, and then don't worry about what follows. I did it. There are reasons why I have kept emotions away, far away. They just fuck things up. They screw up everything. This time I took a chance, a chance to let the heart unbend, letting all the walls down, accepting what the heart felt, and the biggest blunder of confessing it. I never thought I would regret any decision I will take. I have made huge mistakes, been foolish, stupid, immature , but this time I just followed my heart, I accepted what it felt and let it out, and I regret it.
I have never really accepted, what my biggest weakness is, and it is losing people. Nothing in this world can hurt me like losing a person, no matter how , no matter why, it just breaks me down to bits, and then another phase of where I want to hide begins. I remember following my heart before doing best things for a wrong person, and I still never regretted them.
This feeling is horrible. This feeling of regret. I wish I could undo things, I wish I could just go back and delete that time and make things as they were, happy and simple. Since when did it become so difficult to just accept that someone likes you and you dont, and be normal like you were.
If this is what happens , if you follow your heart, I swear, never in my life I am doing that. Its best when you suppress and kill your emotions and feelings, you harm no one but yourself, but this feeling of unintentionally hurting someone and then to top it losing them is the CRAPPIEST ever. Rejection doesn't hurt, but this feeling, losing a friend, and knowing somewhere because of this stupid heart you've unintentionally hurt the person you felt for , THIS HURTS.
Never thought I would regret something as beautiful as this feeling, but I regret feeling for you, I regret ever writing it out, I regret every fucking thing this fucked up heart ever felt. I regret these emotions. And I swear to kick them out , and never to feel anything, because its best. BE A RUTHLESS , HEARTLESS BITCH.
Make me disappear, before this feeling ends up killing me. Just don't let me be found. I am strong but I don't have the strength or the courage to go through this anymore.
I remember reading somewhere, follow your heart, do what it says, and then don't worry about what follows. I did it. There are reasons why I have kept emotions away, far away. They just fuck things up. They screw up everything. This time I took a chance, a chance to let the heart unbend, letting all the walls down, accepting what the heart felt, and the biggest blunder of confessing it. I never thought I would regret any decision I will take. I have made huge mistakes, been foolish, stupid, immature , but this time I just followed my heart, I accepted what it felt and let it out, and I regret it.
I have never really accepted, what my biggest weakness is, and it is losing people. Nothing in this world can hurt me like losing a person, no matter how , no matter why, it just breaks me down to bits, and then another phase of where I want to hide begins. I remember following my heart before doing best things for a wrong person, and I still never regretted them.
This feeling is horrible. This feeling of regret. I wish I could undo things, I wish I could just go back and delete that time and make things as they were, happy and simple. Since when did it become so difficult to just accept that someone likes you and you dont, and be normal like you were.
If this is what happens , if you follow your heart, I swear, never in my life I am doing that. Its best when you suppress and kill your emotions and feelings, you harm no one but yourself, but this feeling of unintentionally hurting someone and then to top it losing them is the CRAPPIEST ever. Rejection doesn't hurt, but this feeling, losing a friend, and knowing somewhere because of this stupid heart you've unintentionally hurt the person you felt for , THIS HURTS.
Never thought I would regret something as beautiful as this feeling, but I regret feeling for you, I regret ever writing it out, I regret every fucking thing this fucked up heart ever felt. I regret these emotions. And I swear to kick them out , and never to feel anything, because its best. BE A RUTHLESS , HEARTLESS BITCH.
Make me disappear, before this feeling ends up killing me. Just don't let me be found. I am strong but I don't have the strength or the courage to go through this anymore.
